I feel very fortunate to have been raised in a loving home by supportive parents. This is not to say they are perfect, but they have always tried their very best to be supportive. Often times they do not agree with my decisions because they do not mesh with their religious beliefs, that of a Latter Day Saint. Sometimes my mother will let her disapproval show. Like when I wear a tube top that shows a bit more skin than she would like. She will just look at me, shake her head and say nothing. But I know, and she knows I know. All that said, I am fortunate. I have had my challenges in life (who hasn't), and there was a period of time when I had "mommy issues", but I can honestly say I have moved past that and feel blessed to live the life I leed.
In Utah, being a 27 (almost 28!) unmarried female with no children is a little rare. To a lot of the community I am an old maid. I mean what's wrong with me? I'm not married with 2.5 kids? Somebody check her temp because she must not be well! I recently opened a facebook account and have started to be contacted by all the people I went to high school with. I am not exaggerating when I tell you that 90% of them are married with 1-2 kids. I am happy for them, but at the same time a little confused. All these amazing bright intelligent women go to college, get a degree, get married, have children and never work. I guess it can be disputed that being a mother is work or their "job" and I am sure it is. I don't want to come across that this is not an important roll. I just don't know that it is the roll for me. In Utah it seems to be all of the womens ultimate goal. For me however, having children is not my ultimate goal. More my if it happens down the road with the right person at the right time - great! If not, I'm ok.
I like my life. There is always room for improvement and it is far from perfect, but all things considered I have a good life! I have a good job in an industry that challenges me and I love. I have amazing genuine friends. I live in a place surrounded by beauty that constantly has the ability to take my breath away. My family is close (sometimes a little too close) and always there for me. I am financially stable...not rich or incredibly well off, but I have enough to get by and enjoy life. I have my independence and my freedom. What more could a girl ask for?