Friday, August 22, 2008

Flipidy Flop Flop Flop

Know how some times you stop and think, hey, my life is pretty damn awesome! I have a lot going for me, my heads on strait, I'm in control of my destiny, I have great friends and family and a whiny cat that loves me. I'm taking on college even though everyone is 5 or 10 years younger than me I am still going to kick butt at school cause I rock! I'm in good shape, I've got a modeling gig of sorts this weekend and its sunny and beautiful outside and I've got a job that pays the bills and I'm going on vacation to CALI baby in 2 weeks and gosh darn it LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL!!!!? Then out of nowhere you get a text from your x-husband who has been, up until recently, your best friend for the past 10 years saying "Happy late birthday" only 2 weeks late when he has never forgotten before and you made it a point to wish him a happy birthday ON his birthday and then all of the hurt feelings you have been suppressing deep down inside come rushing to the surface and you find yourself crying alone in the bathroom but you are not crying just because he finally remembered, you are crying because he is engaged and living with his soon to be wife and her 3 kids and he killed your old dog, well he gave him to the humane society so you don't really know, but the point is that you trusted him to take care of that dog and then when he offered to let you say goodbye to your dog you couldn't even take him up on it so now your dog Winston keeps visiting you in your dreams and more and more emotions start flooding to the surface and you are asking yourself am I going to start my period? Where are all of these emotions coming from? What is my deal here? Then you choke back the tears, clean yourself up and hide in your office so no one sees that your eyes are red.

Ever have one of those days?

Yeah...me too.

4 comments:

JohnnyandJune said...

Some days I feel like going back to sleep so that I can start over.

kel said...

Awww.....cheer up, Audrina's hot sister. You guys divorced for a reason, right? You're going new places and it's exciting...

kel said...

P.S....where are you coming in CA? If you're in SD, let's do coffee or beach.

Sarah said...

Kel is right on with the Audrina comparison. I know because I just watched the new episode for the third time even though I hated it the first time.